Well, there’s nothing like waiting until the last minute to do something, right? I am supposed to have my blog come out on Tuesday, February 27, 2924, and I am writing this at 12:16 AM on Tuesday, February 27.
This is honestly the first time I’ve done this. I had been pretty good about writing four or five or more blogs ahead, so I didn’t get caught scrambling like this. So, what happened here? Let’s examine that.
Well, before I do that, I have to admit that I fell asleep just a few minutes after I started writing this, so I am now finishing the writing at 5:25 PM.
So, again, why did I wait until the last minute? I think it goes back a few weeks to when I was sick at the beginning/middle of February. I just feel like I’m one step behind with everything, like I’m trying to run to get caught up, and it’s just not working. It's the old one step forward, two steps back kind of thing!
Here’s an example. I have birthday presents on my dining room table for family, and the birthdays were the end of January and the beginning of February. I just haven’t wrapped them or boxed them up to mail them. Now, I have more birthdays coming up in April!
Can anyone relate to this? Am I the only one that feels like this sometimes? It also affects my Bible reading. I took on a one-year Bible reading plan on the Bible app, and I started out great! But I currently have 23 missed days.
I am truly disappointed in myself. After being in Bible study tonight, I see this is the perfectionist in me freaking out because I am not being perfect! So, how do I get back in the game? How do I get caught up?
I guess I should first have a conversation with God about this. I’m feeling tired and a bit overwhelmed, so I need to tell the one who made me. He will understand, and with His help I can refocus my time to get back on track with my Bible study and everything else. Putting God first really does help everything else to fall into place.
Then, I also need to give myself a little grace. I was sick and now I’m getting caught up, so I need to stop running around like a crazy woman from one thing to the next and just get things done one at a time. I’m human, and I am not perfect, and I don’t need to pretend I have it all together.
Psalm 23:1-3 says, “The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul.” I was in a Bible study a while back, and the scripture focus was on Psalm 23, which I love! My God really is a good shepherd to me. Look at how God takes care of me—“He makes me lie down in green pastures. . . He refreshes my soul.”
He “makes me” because He knows sometimes, I don’t listen. Thank you, God, for knowing what I need when sometimes I don’t even know. You've got me and you love me even when I'm not perfect (which is always)!
Lord, I need you to refresh my soul! Thank you!
Thanks for reading friends!
Love,
Julie
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